“Parents can only give good advice or put them on the right paths, but the final forming of a person’s character lies in their own hands.” ~Anne Frank
I’m guessing you’ve noticed a few changes around here at Small Potatoes. We’ve grown up a little bit since we started here on the web, and it was time for change. I embraced the process. I knew things would be bright and cheerful and happy when it was all finished. And it is.
But there has been a different kind of change in my world and I’m not sure I’m as willing to give in to the process. My oldest small is growing up. I am trying to embrace it the way I embrace most change, but this one is different. She’s my wee bubba. Granted, she has always been an old soul…a quiet maturity that came right along with her earthly body. But she has always been my little girl. I think she always will be in my mind. Which means watching her experience future milestones like college, relationships, and children of her own is NOT going to ever be easy. I think I may be digging my heels in for a whole lot of years. Sigh.
Tell me, experienced mamas…does it get any easier? Ever?
She graduated from high school last month and I think that’s what has thrown me. She’s only 17 and I guess I had it in my mind that a kid doesn’t graduate until she’s 18!About a year ago, when Small Potatoes was just starting out on its journey, I blogged about Emily and her love of horses. And here she is now. All graduated and setting out in the big world herself. I had the opportunity to make her senior photos for her, and let me tell you…the girl is a joy to photograph. Especially when she brings along her “bestie” Jessie Mare. Oh my, we had fun. And we totally trashed the dress!
It started out innocently enough…
After all, what’s the harm in just standing by the barn in your prom dress? But when you get two girls and a camera together with a horse and the girl with the camera is me… well, pretty soon you’re sitting in the barn AND on the horse in your prom dress!
As I look at these photographs, I see a beautiful woman. Strong, courageous and ready. And I had a little something to do with that. This gives me courage and strength to embrace this change. Am I ready for it? I’m pretty sure I’m not. But then I look at this one, and I see my little girl again…
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~Arlee, Small Potatoes